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Saturday, August 8, 2015

Little Travel to Blue Spring!

One day trip to Blue Spring at the beginning of the year, semester A. Super pretty!! Sorry for the super late post again. LOL well, I'm lazy...admit that =.=

Saturday, March 14, 2015

It has been one year when the painful truth hits me. There's no one to blame but myself. Again and again putting all the faith and trust on empty promises. There's one moment things seems like going to be better, future back together seems promising, at last all the tears and endless pain will end. But no, not that case. Even things have some slightly changes, but the pain and tears never leaves me.

So many stupid stuff that I've done to try to fix everything. Till the extend of putting myself in embarrassing moment just because i believed in him and I don't regret of all of this because i know I've done my best, all I can.

Just that the fact that someone said how much they love u and giving u all the promises even they won't do it just hurts so much. Wasn't that i hope for all the promise and shit, just that if you don't mean it..just don't promise because I trust u with all my heart and u took me as a fool. Treating me like I'm less than anyone else, comes when u needed me and leave me alone in time of despair. It hurts but it too slowly opens my eyes, and my brain starting to do the logic thinking and not all about the heart with is full of emotions.

Some things can be fix, but not relationship and heart.Even it could be mend up, it still leaves a scar behind. I don't hope anything anymore. All i want is a word from you. The CLOSURE that i needed to keep everything in a box and leave it in the past. Answer that do you really love me? ( but i'll doubt that now, base on all you lies and the way you treated me) or u want move on with your own life and we won't be any related anymore. You guys might think why don't i just break it off myself? the answer is simple, it's not that I'm leaving my fate for him to decide. It's a answer that he owes me. Answer that he keeps avoiding and adding on lies to cover it.Thus it's my closure. The "answer" .

Anyway, i just need a way to let things out. Starting to gives me emotional burden LOL need to let it out. For those who read this, i know I'm dumb asf to believe in all shit but yeah, i guess what they said is true, 1st love is always the hardest and the fact that I've been through a lot with him. Something that was build thru out times, good and bad. Hmmm...i hope, time can make me a better person. =)

Saturday, October 11, 2014

Hello NEW ZEALAND

Yes! as I've mention on my previous post, I'm going to New Zealand to future my studies and I'm in New Zealand now. It was a long trip from Malaysia to NZ. 16hrs (included transit in Melbourne,Australia). Lucky I flew here with Emirates, made this long 16hrs of pain bearable OMG!
Super comfy, MUSIC AND MOVIE keep you company in the entire trip! all latest updated movie and song. To cut things short, that's the best experience with travelling in airplane so far! (Sorry MAS =/)

New life? Yes indeed! Studies, new people, new culture, winter(for the 1st time in life!) Things got kind of confusing at the 1st place due to my late arrival (3weeks behind ) But all good now. 3 more assignment left and IM FREEEEEE!

Summer holiday starts on 8th November till next year February 2015( super long break). But before I'm going back to Malaysia, I'm going to AUSTRALIA! Aussieeee! Melbourne. No special reason just don't feel like going back Malaysia to face my previous problems( try to avoid as long as i can) mean while I'm emotionally and mentally prepare for the outcome/result of the "problem" duh.

I'll try to blog as frequent as I can. Some other events post next time=) Some nice scenery photo for u guys!

Spring NOW! SAKURA FLOWERS

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Study Plan

1st i would like to apologise on some of the post that i've promise to post but didn't? Currently I'm at my hometown, even there's internet access...it was toooo slow. I've actually blog about my HK trip. But due to the super slow line and huge photo size...it was unable to be post. So, i'll get back to that when i've a better internet access. =)

Now, back to the real topic. I guess those who read my blog will know that in one of the previous post I've state that I'm leaving to future my studies. Now everything has been confirm ( it's a very sudden plan in short amount of time). I'll be leaving Malaysia to New Zealand to continue my study for 1 & half year.

People may ask why so sudden? Why choose New Zealand out of so many country. To be HONEST, I actually didn't plan this whole thing from the beginning. I do admit that all along in my mind, I did thought of studying in overseas. BUT I never took it seriously ( to go overseas) maybe I'm not ready in sort of way or just wasting opportunity in my life.

I guess everything you done in life has been planned by GOD or bound to sort of fate. After all the heart breaking moment where I've no idea where to go or do in my life, one day i went back to my college for my friend's final year exhibition. I've talked to a few of my lectures and one of my lectures, Mr. Jeremy Pinto (HUGE THANKS FOR MR.JEREMY FOR ALL THE HELP ) was the person who told me about studying in New Zealand. Where's a few of the lectures and himself studied there. That moment was the time where I've decided to start new and finally I took the courage to move forward to explore, learn and leave behind the sad memories. Leaving to New Zealand would be also an opportunity to find myself, up grade my knowledge and value...until I could accept another person in my life...I need to be the one who accept myself, love myself more than anything else.

Sorry, for those emotional stuff I've wrote. hehe. Update HK trip real soon.
Once again thank you Mr. Jeremy Pinto, you have done more than just a lecture's responsibility . You're really a GREAT TEACHER AND AWESOME FRIEND. I really appreciate it =) thank you.

XOXO (GAY)

Saturday, May 10, 2014

7 stage

Yeah, at the age of 22, my 1st heart break. 1st breakup after more then 1 year together (nearly 2) and ON&OFF after breakup for about 1 year. 3 years ain't easy, we been through GOOD and BAD times together and this time is the REAL breakup. It isn't easy to let go the person you love especially your 1st and all the memories. But I'm blessed to have great and true people in my life. My friend who support me at my down times, pull me up every time a fall, encourage me to step out. I maybe not completely OK, but it has been a long way of recovery...and I'm feeling better now.

I won't say all the details in this 3 years, what had happened or pointing fingers at each other blaming, because what is done can't be undone and no matter how many times we able to apologise or how regret we felt, all we can do... or at least I can do is to learn from it and move on. I've learned from my mistake, leave the past behind and hope for a better future.. This is a video a friend of mine shared to me, he said the story just like my situation, yeah it is...overall conclusion how this relationship goes from good, sweet moments to depressing and the 7 stages after breakup that I've currently been through.

Jinnyboy & Night Owl Cinematic's

Me, Myself and I

Monday, May 5, 2014

Hatyai & Kohlipe (Maldives of Thailand!)

YUP! as PROMISED, I'll upload the photos of my Thailand trip! Kohlipe & Hatyai~

*cautions: this post may contain lots of #SELFIES!
Thanks JESSICA for the Awesome photos and lending me the camera for the pics!